When I’m feeling under the weather I want to find comfort. I want to be reminded that better times are out there. I want to remember those times and be at peace.
That’s when I turn to my favorite books. To my favorite movies. To my favorite mug.
And so, if you happen to have seen me this week or spoken to me on the phone, I apologize if I’ve spewed out too much information to you about exactly how I’m feeling. I’m sorry if I’ve told you that I have this nasty cyst on my leg that got abscessed and started oozing things that ought not to be outside of my body.
You see, as I say these things, I’m searching for comfort. I’m not even caring if I’m grossing anyone out because, frankly, I feel terrible and misery loves company.
That’s why, right now, I’ve put Lord of the Rings on the DVD player. I’ve made myself a cup of tea in my grandmother’s old mug. I’ve made a bowl of popcorn because popcorn is my youth – every Sunday night we’d eat it for supper – and that brings comfort right now, years later, miles away, on this Tuesday evening.
And frankly, right now, with my leg twinging and the redness continuing to creep across the back of my knee, and the blood showing beneath my gauze padding…I need comfort.
Thanks for your patience with me. I promise not to post photos.
PS – It’s now Friday and I do feel better, though definitely not 100%…thanks for asking.